In A Flare

I've been in and out of a flare for over a month now. Is that even possible? I really dont know. I'm new to Fibromyalgia and to be honest I just haven't had the energy or motivation to research it much, so I've got a lot of questions lost in the fog that's consuming my brain. I was just diagnosed in December. Well actually I was sorta diagnosed a year ago, but it got lost in the shuffle of another diagnoses which was connective tissue disease, that I dont even know if i really have anymore! But that's another story, for another day.

I really don't know how much more of this I can take. I feel awful. My entire body hurts. The fatigue is neck-n-neck with pain for being the most disabling. And the fog in my head.............can't even think clearly enough to explain it! Let's just say that I feel like I've had a partial labotomy.

My Dr prescribed prednisone and I've been on it for 5 days now, with 11 more days to go. I thought I would be feeling better by now but I'm not. Well actually the pain is better, but the fatigue and the fog are still debilitating. I've also been running a low grade fever. I'm normally at 97.5 but I've been getting up to around 99.3 off and on throughout the day.

The last week has been the worst by far. I've been completely out of order. I lay here all day long, accomplishing absolutely nothing. It is so depressing to feel so useless. To not care for my children the way I should be able to. I can't even take care of myself, how in gods name am I supposed to take care of anyone else? And since caring for my children and my husband and our home is my job, where the hell does that leave me? or them?! Well I'll tell ya. My house is a disaster. My kids aren't being fed nutritious meals. I'm not able to help them with homework. They aren't getting enough showers. I can't even shower myself but once or maybe if I'm lucky twice a week. My husband has to pick up my slack, which means after working all day long, he has to come home and do MY job. Tonight I wasn't able to prepare dinner, so he had to do it, and I feel so guilty about that.

As if this wasn't enough, the endo pain started up this afternoon, which has a LOT to do with my fatigue and foggy head issues. The pain in my abdomen is so bad. I just can't believe this is my life.

ok vent over for now.